How was it?

It's quite remarkable to consider the fact, that although the three letters O, C & D are very common to use in our daily lives, the psychologists at the hospital still had a struggling fight trying to find the exact diagnose - or the right box, so to say - that fitted to me and my behavior.

First of all, I was diagnosed with a simple depression. However, the psychologists were not very much sure about whether they had found the exact name for what I was struggling with yet; I didn't even know it myself.

It went on for months although it felt like several years. Then, one day, September 12th in 2010 they knew it: "OCD & schizophrenia, Jonas. That is what it is." I still remember when the psychologist and the nurse told it to me.

After those news I felt like I was falling into a deep hole in my ground. I've never experienced feelings like those in my entire life; I just got a diagnosis. Everything seemed unbearable after suddenly getting the results we had been looking for. I didn't understand it. They afterwards offered to hospitalize me at the psychiatric hospital in Herning ASAP. However, I declined the offer, which I still, this day today, regret.

Continuously, weeks became months and months became years...

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OCD - what?

I've had a lot of disastrous experiences during my short life. However, forcing myself to look at my life with OCD from a positive perspective made me survive the hardest times, and today I'm standing here; doing the International Baccalaureate education at Ikast-Brande Gymnasium on second year.

Actually, it's quite funny to think back at the "olden days" where I didn't spent my very valuable time on doing anything but trying to go through my day with as less symptoms as conceivably possible; how a human being can evolve and blossom as if they had worked their entire life to do exactly that.

This blog will mainly focus on how it was like having to live with this detestable disease every single day for four years - obsessive, compulsive thoughts combined with both medication, psychological help and countless visits at the psychiatric hospital.

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